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introduction [default;one] [January 01, 2030 | 02:14 PM] I created this public journal for more generic writing. Some will reflect on daily life, people in it, and may read like a diary entry. The rest will be thoughts, musings, and other such things, that come into my head. If you want to see my friends only personal journal go to ---> ein_sommersturm <---- //NAVIGATION// credit profile

three;secrets [June 05, 2009 | 11:42 PM] [ music | elliot smith//first timer ] There is one per person. I'll be adding to this. ( i think of you with hesitation i think of you too hard come on back to me but don’t make me sorry )

two;recovery/identity [May 26, 2009 | 01:42 PM] I have had no time to recover from anything life's thrown at me. Not that I should expect life to be easy, but it is draining to have no time to patch up my wounds and recover. Though I do not need to really recover, I need a breather, to slightly patch up my wounds and then keep going. Having space, time, being away from others, will not quicken the process, it will only make it longer. People say, "take time away, figure out who you are." I know who I am, thank you. I am growing, and I am fine with that. I like the fact that I am growing. I will tell you my full name, or any of my nick names, my gaelic name, then I'll say, you can also call me Liz or Usagi or Padme. Calling me Kaitlyn probably means you are family. Or you maybe the one person I allow to call me Kaitlyn. There are very few family members who I am close with so this name has little meaning. It is mostly a formality. Calling me Kayt means that we are friends. Too many people call me this so this is also just a formality. However, it is still important. Calling me Liz will bring up memories of the boy I called Hellboy. I am fiesty, I am headstrong, I am brutal and have a bastard's tongue sometimes. I will say things to piss you off, or I'll just say them to say them. This is okay, because my paramour is was just as headstrong as I am. Saying "you are Liz", is asking me to play with fire. Liz is powerful and destructive, she'll destroy herself and whomever hurts her without a blink of an eye. I am okay with this sometimes, because a part of me is all those things. A part of me is Liz, always. Calling me Usagi will make me thin of the Mamoru in my life. Dynamic, whiny girl with long hair who loved too fast and protected herself too much. Jumping too quick to say I love you and sending text messages in the night while my body ached for things. Usagi exists sometimes when I feel like my voice doesn't work and I cannot connect to people. Calling me Padme is tapping into who I really am. I am beautiful, smart, I love so simply and endlessly. There is an Anakin, too, but don't be fooled. This Padme is independent, she is her own. She has no other half. She will accept another to be her equal but she is never half of something. She is the most powerful of my identities. Padme is calm and happy and her soul is safe inside her and although she gaurds herself, she lets people in. Sometimes too much, but she picks herself up nicely. Calling me a nomad means you know me deeply. This is what I wish I could be everyday. I've nebulas for jewelry, and I am always dancing and beautiful. I am my own nomad, there is no counterpart, paramour or not, there is only me. Love the nomad, and you are golden. All these things, I am. I do not know my exact direction in life, but that's okay, as long as I am growing and I touch my nomad feet to the ground and say, "Here goes!" I know who I am. Do you now who you are?

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